Thoughts

[london1967]

Yesterday afternoon I had another "episode", luckily not as bad as 10 days earlier.
This morning I went to my GP (miraculously there was an appointment available at 9:30 am when I checked yesterday) and he said that it is probably Ménière’s disease.

I need to see an ENT specialist, and I'm waiting to see if the private medical insurance we have through work is going to cover it; if not, it's the NHS and a few months' wait.

When these attacks happen I feel so unwell that I tell Adrian that if it wasn't for him, I'd just be happy to die. I know it may sound like a monstrous and exaggerated thing to think but that's how I feel in those moments. Good job that there isn't just a button to press to 'shut down'.

Death has been on my mind this week.
On Saturday, a neighbour - two doors down from us - died of cancer at the local hospice.  We were not close but we would occasionally chat and she did a lot for the residents' association. I said 'chat' but it was more really a case of being 'talked at' as she didn't really listen much, but I guess I didn't really mind that: after all, we are all different.
I was pleasantly suprised by the reaction at the news of her passing: she is remembered with gratitude and even affection by many neighbours, and that somehow alleviates my sadness at the thought of yet another life gone and soon forgotten.

Today I skipped the gym and went to collect some US$ for our upcoming trip.
I'm always amazed at how quickly things change in London. I hadn't been down some of those streets behing Regent Street for a while and it all looks rather different: new shops, new restaurants and even new buildings.Mind you, not that I quite remember what was there before!

I think I need a holiday and some sunshine.... in the meantime, perhaps naked yoga in a couple of hours' time will cheer me up! No sun but some mooning! LOL!

Comments

[itsjustc.livejournal.com]

I think bobalone is giving good MD advice as that sounds similar to my moms situation too.

I hope you get something sorted for it and start to feel better soon.

I've just finally, after many years, got over Labyrinthitis which sort of has similar symptoms. It's not very nice at all!! I was checked out for MD seeing as my mom had it but I was told I didn't.

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! I'm seeing the specialist this week - fingers crossed.
Great to hear that your labyrinthitis got better. I can imagine how unpleasant that is too!