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[london1967]

Yesterday afternoon I had another "episode", luckily not as bad as 10 days earlier.
This morning I went to my GP (miraculously there was an appointment available at 9:30 am when I checked yesterday) and he said that it is probably Ménière’s disease.

I need to see an ENT specialist, and I'm waiting to see if the private medical insurance we have through work is going to cover it; if not, it's the NHS and a few months' wait.

When these attacks happen I feel so unwell that I tell Adrian that if it wasn't for him, I'd just be happy to die. I know it may sound like a monstrous and exaggerated thing to think but that's how I feel in those moments. Good job that there isn't just a button to press to 'shut down'.

Death has been on my mind this week.
On Saturday, a neighbour - two doors down from us - died of cancer at the local hospice.  We were not close but we would occasionally chat and she did a lot for the residents' association. I said 'chat' but it was more really a case of being 'talked at' as she didn't really listen much, but I guess I didn't really mind that: after all, we are all different.
I was pleasantly suprised by the reaction at the news of her passing: she is remembered with gratitude and even affection by many neighbours, and that somehow alleviates my sadness at the thought of yet another life gone and soon forgotten.

Today I skipped the gym and went to collect some US$ for our upcoming trip.
I'm always amazed at how quickly things change in London. I hadn't been down some of those streets behing Regent Street for a while and it all looks rather different: new shops, new restaurants and even new buildings.Mind you, not that I quite remember what was there before!

I think I need a holiday and some sunshine.... in the meantime, perhaps naked yoga in a couple of hours' time will cheer me up! No sun but some mooning! LOL!

Comments

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

Where are you travelling?

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Phoenix, Las Vegas, Palm Springs and San Diego.

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a great trip :) bon voyage!

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[maxauburn.livejournal.com]

Sounds fun! Enjoy!

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Cheers, thanks a lot!

[dan4behr.livejournal.com]

Sounds as if you'll escape the chilly gloom of February London and hit the sunny southwest USA at the height of it's season!

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Fingers crossed!!

[bobalone.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to learn of your illness. If it is MD, the episodes likely will become less frequent, but the tinnitus could increase, which is what I learned from my mother's situation. I hope your drs. are able to give you a firm diagnosis so that you can begin a course of activity appropriate to the cause. Meanwhile, I agree with you: a vacation with lots of sunshine is most promising! I hope the British pound is faring better against the American dollar than the Canadian dollar is. Our vacation in the States is becoming more expensive by the day! Btw, I posted some info on Facebook about Las Vegas, as did Shawn; ask Adrian about it, if he hasn't mentioned it already.

[london1967.livejournal.com]

The US$/GBP exchange rate was much better when we booked the flights last summer, but oh well!
And thanks for the info about Vegas!

[itsjustc.livejournal.com]

I think bobalone is giving good MD advice as that sounds similar to my moms situation too.

I hope you get something sorted for it and start to feel better soon.

I've just finally, after many years, got over Labyrinthitis which sort of has similar symptoms. It's not very nice at all!! I was checked out for MD seeing as my mom had it but I was told I didn't.

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! I'm seeing the specialist this week - fingers crossed.
Great to hear that your labyrinthitis got better. I can imagine how unpleasant that is too!

[mrdreamjeans.livejournal.com]

I hope you can find treatment and relief from the symptoms of the Meniere's disease. It's sad to hear that your neighbor passed away. I often think about my own death ... Will I be alone? What will be my legacy? How will others remember me? Unlike my brother and sister, I don't have children who are having children ...

May you have an absolutely splendid trip to the US!!

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Thanks very much, Neil.

[holy13nation.livejournal.com]

Been lying low awhile so sorry to read about you being so ill. All the best for getting yourself right and for the US trip. I am so used to seeing you both in splendid European surroundings that Vegas will be a tad surreal.

[london1967.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! I'm seeing the specialist this week and at the moment I'm feeling OK - touch wood!

I know, Vegas is going to be a bit of a shock! LOL