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I had my second session last night but this time no hypnosis.
He used some different techniques including EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing).
We worked on one particular item on my wish list: "being more outgoing/chatty; feeling at ease in large groups of people" (the metaphor I used was that sometimes I'd like to be more like a tulip than a wallflower!) and he identified a 'target' in the near future: the work Christmas do.
An exercise I had to do with my eyes closed was to imagine to be in a cinema, the only person there.
The screen was white and I was the director creating my own film. The film always started the same way with a photo frame of a happy memory (I chose our civil partnership and in particular the very moment I put the ring on![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
london1952 's finger), then the Christmas party, followed by another photo of another happy moment (I chose being naked on the beach in Sitges with london1952 , bazanges and the church in the background).
Then I had to play the film forward and backwards, make it black and white apart from the happy memories, add some silly music, a party theme/costumes, imagining myself in the film - in colour and normal clothes - holding conversation and enjoying the party, and play it faster and faster.
(I am not sure what he says about me that I chose "Mars Attack!" as the party theme and the British Airways music, the Flower Duet but I was kind of panicking and couldn't think of anything!)
It was exhausting.
I have now to add this to my daily self-hypnosis routine... I tried last night at home but I feel asleep during the relaxation phase!
Something that dawned on me yesterday is that this requires much more work than just sitting in a chair and talking... I have to do homework!
He used some different techniques including EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing).
We worked on one particular item on my wish list: "being more outgoing/chatty; feeling at ease in large groups of people" (the metaphor I used was that sometimes I'd like to be more like a tulip than a wallflower!) and he identified a 'target' in the near future: the work Christmas do.
An exercise I had to do with my eyes closed was to imagine to be in a cinema, the only person there.
The screen was white and I was the director creating my own film. The film always started the same way with a photo frame of a happy memory (I chose our civil partnership and in particular the very moment I put the ring on
london1952 's finger), then the Christmas party, followed by another photo of another happy moment (I chose being naked on the beach in Sitges with london1952 , bazanges and the church in the background).Then I had to play the film forward and backwards, make it black and white apart from the happy memories, add some silly music, a party theme/costumes, imagining myself in the film - in colour and normal clothes - holding conversation and enjoying the party, and play it faster and faster.
(I am not sure what he says about me that I chose "Mars Attack!" as the party theme and the British Airways music, the Flower Duet but I was kind of panicking and couldn't think of anything!)
It was exhausting.
I have now to add this to my daily self-hypnosis routine... I tried last night at home but I feel asleep during the relaxation phase!
Something that dawned on me yesterday is that this requires much more work than just sitting in a chair and talking... I have to do homework!
